24wks 5days – Wednesday September 14th

Today is the last day that my pregnancy will be a link to Tommy Jr. I am 24 weeks and 5 days- this is the day I went into labor with my darling Baby Boy. Tomorrow, Baby Girl and I will start a whole new adventure- one that’s just hers and mine. As the younger sister of two high achieving brothers, I know sometimes it’s fun to have something that’s just yours alone and not overshadowed by what your brothers did. Tommy Jr will always be a part of our family, and will be her big brother, but these next couple of months are going to be all new for everyone.

I brought my mom to my ultra-sound today. I was nervous to have her see me so nervous…I guess I’ve kidded myself into thinking that my family and friends think I’m calm and hopeful. The whole drive downtown I heard myself talking loudly and braying with laughter at the slightest joke. I did strange things like refused to double check the floor number or where the parking garage was- that bought me a few extra minutes. Eventually we found ourselves in the darkened room. Then there was that moment in every ultrasound where I think- is this the point where I have to confront disaster?

This appointment was disaster-free. It was even happiness-full.

It was nice having my mom there with me. She was excited and happy and had fun…it’s pretty impossible to be really scared when the person you’re with is having a ball. Tom and I are cautiously optimistic about our daughter reaching full term. My mother is matter-of-factly optimistic, and it sort of felt like a relief to let that rub off on me.

So here we are, somewhere completely different. I didn’t expect the arrival and passing of this day to be so visceral. October 28th I’ll be 30 weeks pregnant, and I think everything will change again. 30 weeks is safety, and with safety I hope some relief from the undercurrent of fret that hums just below my skin.

It’s almost bedtime now. I made it past today. I just have to go to bed and wake up every day until October 28th. Then I’ll figure out what to do next.

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  1. Kathy Miller says:

    I’m so happy for you and baby girl. You are both in my prayers and I will be thinking of you on October 28th :) xo

  2. tina says:

    beautiful post heather. i love you so much

  3. Kristen says:

    So glad you have passed this point. I’ve been thinking a lot about this same thing…this Friday is 11 weeks 5 days for my current pregnancy…the time when I lost my last pregnancy last spring…I think it’s going to feel good to move beyond that time and have this pregnancy be its own thing vs being compared to last time.
    Sending you peace and love…

  4. Leslie Ann says:

    “… undercurrent of fret that hums just below my skin.” Very well said. Glad you and your mom ended up having fun. Hello Baby Girl!

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