http://www.poorluckyme.com/blog Tue, 07 Sep 2010 16:32:28 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en I had the pleasure of going to a surprise party to celebrate a dear friend's birthday last week. His wife, another dear friend, gave me a couple of tasks to do. She is one of the most sensitive people I know. I suspect she knows how difficult ... http://www.poorluckyme.com/blog/?p=2150 Well, I'm suffering from depression. I didn't want to admit it at first. I thought: I'm not depressed, I'm just grieving. But I can't see the point in denying it anymore. The grief is it's own entity, it's like having a third arm or a vestigial ... http://www.poorluckyme.com/blog/?p=2148 Well I didn't have the nerve to write yesterday. Tom and I hadn't finished moving (I still have to make one more trip today!) and I was in a constant state of panic. I'm feeling better this morning- I went back to the old place and met the ... http://www.poorluckyme.com/blog/?p=2145 Alright. The due date has come and gone. The trip to the cemetery was terribly sad but cathartic too. It was a good reminder that we're not paralyzed by this grief. We are still capable of loving each other and hoping for our future and surrounded ... http://www.poorluckyme.com/blog/?p=2142 I was not prepared for how bad my period would be. I'm in a lot of pain physically- the doctors warned me it would be difficult. But I didn't understand that the cramps would feel like contractions. It's like my body is sending distress signals to my ... http://www.poorluckyme.com/blog/?p=2140 Yesterday's post yielded a few concerned phone calls. I'm going to be ok, but in the meantime at least I can be honest. This reality can get ugly and I know it can be difficult to read. I know that my loved ones are sometimes left feeling impotent ... http://www.poorluckyme.com/blog/?p=2138 I think I'm having my period. I was supposed to be 39 weeks pregnant but instead I'm having my period. And I'm not handling it well at all. I'm starting to have this feeling that I'm watching myself all the time. It's interesting actually, because I've ... http://www.poorluckyme.com/blog/?p=2133 Incompetent cervix. It turns out my feelings of inadequacy were not entirely unfounded. I wrote that as a joke but the truth is I kind of secretly think that maybe the impostor complex that's always plagued me was a misinterpreted sign. (Not that I believe in signs)   Tom ... http://www.poorluckyme.com/blog/?p=2119 I'm back...sorry for the radio silence last week. Tom and I went to Europe and I guess I was too anxious to write. We had a wonderful trip- it was our third anniversary, but really it was the last leg on Operation Speed Up Time To Get Past ... http://www.poorluckyme.com/blog/?p=2121 I think I'm getting freon poisoning from sitting in air-conditioning all day. I go from air conditioned apartment to air-conditioned office to air conditioned car. I haven't looked it up or anything, but I think the symptoms are waking up at 5am no matter what and a lack ... http://www.poorluckyme.com/blog/?p=2117