Today is my 32nd birthday. All I could think all weekend in anticipation is: “What am I supposed to do now?” I haven’t cried in days, and I’m afraid the raw pain is turning into something else. It’s panic. <\/p>\n
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When your idea of the future gets pulled out from under you, it’s hard to turn to what soothed you in the past. Things are too different now. <\/p>\n
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Yes, as it turns out Tom Sr and I are going to survive this. We are moving forward- sometimes it seems like we’re moving too fast. But I’ve got to find something. “Loss” is such a complete description when someone you love dies. I’m at a loss, I feel lost, I’ve lost my sense of control, I’m losing interest in the things that used to drive me. <\/p>\n
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So I’m going to give myself an assignment. I have to write everyday. I have to finish the art projects lying around my apartment. These two things I must commit to until August 30th. Then I’ll reevaluate. Maybe I’ll take singing lessons. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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