Well, I’m suffering from depression. I didn’t want to admit it at first. I thought: I’m not depressed, I’m just grieving. But I can’t see the point in denying it anymore. The grief is it’s own entity, it’s like having a third arm or a vestigial tail. The depression is like an illness. It makes my bones hurt, it makes my limbs heavy. I feel like the muscles in my face aren’t working right.<\/p>\n
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But I’m not afraid of the depression. I understand that it will come and go, and that I can take action to help cure it. It’s hard for people who see me everyday to understand how I could be depressed and still laugh and joke around. <\/p>\n
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I’m cheerfully depressed.<\/p>\n
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I can function, I know there’s a light at the end of the tunnel (even if I can’t see it). Sometimes though, I feel like I’ve used up so much energy staying straight during the day that once I get home I’m almost comatose. <\/p>\n
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I want to get back to normal, but I don’t know what normal is anymore. Maybe I can just think…I’m waiting for my new self to appear. How’s that sound?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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