I feel like I’ve been shrink-wrapped and vacuum-packed. I’m utterly stuck. Even when I come here to write I feel like I’m just writing the same thing over and over again. When is something going to happen? Do I have to rely on myself to break out of this rut? Do I have to try and get published, get serious about my diet, finish unpacking my apartment?<\/p>\n
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I think I already know the answer. But I’m so afraid to try. I was afraid to try at things before this all happened, now I would say I’m bordering phobic. Trying can lead to failing. See, it’s very simple logic. Trying can also lead to success, but I’m not a big gambler. However, I think I’m finally reaching the point, in my life and in my grief, that the prospect of more running in circles is scarier than the prospect of failing. <\/p>\n
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So today I’m going to take one foot off the edge, and dangle it over the canyon. I’m going to send some writing out, and see what happens. Maybe there’s nothing to be afraid of now, since the worst has already happened. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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