My sudden and violent entrance into adulthood has made me realize how fragile many of our relationships are. I have a few friendships that feel effortless. It’s harder to find time to spend together now that we’re older, or live apart, but when I’m with these people I feel like I’m my whole self. That’s how I feel with my husband too- like I wasn’t even really myself until I met him.
I have other relationships that require so much dancing, flirting, back-peddling, and careful plotting. It didn’t used to bother me- if the person was fun or funny or dear I took pride in being able to have a relationship with challenge. But these days, in these grown-up days, I don’t think I have it in me anymore. I just to have normal relationships with normal people. So I think I’ll work on that for a while.
Anyway, who cares about all that? The real reason I’m writing today is to announce good news! Well the pills are WORKING! I mean I’m still crying all the time and really sad in the afternoons but I have no appetite and have therefor finally lost a little weight! Huzzah! Sure sure, I’ve been exercising so hard that I’ve been offered a towel for my sweat run-off more than once at the gym. That probably has a lot to do with it too. The point is, this little accomplishment (I’m being modest, actually I think it’s a HUGE accomplishment) has made me very pleased with myself. And that’s something to write about.
Any day you can say “Huzzah!” is a good day! Huzzah! So lucky to count you among my “effortless” friends. Congrats to you. You’re beautiful.
Feeling pleased about yourself because of something you did is the second huge accomplishment I see here. The first is that you lost the weight you wanted to. The third accomplishment I see in this statement is that you did something that will help you feel better about YOU and your body! Huzzah indeed!!!!!