I think about my little boy constantly. He was a little person- he had a personality the first day he arrived in the world. I’ll never forget how awestruck I was the first time I met him. He was just so vividly an individual.
Tom and I received the professional pictures that the hospital arranged to have taken the last night he was with us. They are so beautiful- this is one of my favorites. Even though Tommy Jr was too young to open his eyes, I think in this picture he’s trying to gaze up at his Daddy. And Tom Sr looks so beautiful and serene.
These pictures reminded us how happy we were on his last day. Tom and I are smiling like mad in every picture- we knew the sadness would come crashing in, but that evening we were happy. Seeing our child in pain and being completely unable to help him is the most heart-wrenching, soul-crushing, emotionally crippling thing I’ve ever felt. But that last night, we finally got to comfort him and to bond with him the way parents are supposed to. We are so grateful for that time we had with our son. I know he was grateful for it too.